When I Am So Full Of Wanting

 

Days like today are full of wanting

I want to roll over in bed and kiss you awake. 

I want to dress in the dark and sit nursing coffees while we watch the sun come up over the ocean 

I want to fall asleep in each other’s arms, spent, from so many hours of pleasure

I want to talk, talk til we have nothing left to say to each other .....whenever that may be

I want to look up and say ‘hey, let me read you this’......because you are right there.

I want to argue with you about the best way to tuck the sheets when we make our bed in the morning 

I want walk into my favourite cafe with you holding my hand

I want my mum to ask ‘What would HE like for his Birthday?’

I want to introduce you and say ‘Meet my Lover’

I want to plan city weekends and midweek country escapes 

I want our mail to read Drs (YOU) and English and our address to be the same 

I want to have 'IN' jokes, and old frustrations and internal maps that know each other’s scars, scabs and tender places

I want us to have a conversation that meanders across the years 

I want to walk into my favourite deli with you and choose the the makings of a picnic, wander down to the beach with our rug and delight in the flavours as we feed each other 

I want to notice as your body ages and the colour of your eyes fade

I want to have our adult children, and their children, visit us and feel happy that we found each other and get to spend our old age happy 

I want you to dream without fear and live your big life with me 

KAB 22/8/20